"Stop" & "Listen" to the Signs!

I am on medical leave til Wednesday. Ah! How I dread all these days layig in bed, sleeping at times, pondering & thinking most of times and walking painfully around the house. I wonder why people like to take MC and stay at home. Well, may be I am incapicitated by my back pain.

It don upon me that life is rather short and unpredictable. There are signs that we should always pay attention to. Take my back pain for example. I have been having backaches for many years. And I even remember having it as early as in 1986, when I went for the Medical Mission in Saudi. My staff had to masage my back in Muassim.

I kept ignoring them, thinking they were just 'simple 'backaches'. There were other signs and yet I kept ignoring them until the worst happened. By that time, it was too late.

If we were to heed to those signs that we get almost everyday, maybe we can be a better person. We tend to be ego-centric and arrogant even to ourselves. Our body, the environment, nature and especially people around us had been telling us about ourselves. But, unfortunatelly we failed to stop our 'hectic lives' and listen to those signs.

I will now try very hard to now "stop" then "listen" to the signs that are aplenty in order to improve myself. - (12.19pm, 9th Oct 2006 @ home)

GOING FOR OP?

Went to UMMC last Wednesday for second opinion from Prof. Viknesh, a neurosurgeon. He examined and after looking at the MRI told me that a microsurgery of the prolapsed dics could be done and the outcome is normally good. But 3 things really bother me, ie death , coma and spinal paralysis.

Got myself dischraged from ward 7C that day and discussed with SKO. She did some healing over my injury and till today the pain is less. But the spasas and sometimes sever numbness especially over the lateral ankle and thigh can be unbearable. Last night got the pain again. May be I didn't take the pain killer. But by this a.m. is okay.

Thinking to delay the operation until raya. But the pain and spasams still persists I've to go in. But I want to see Aimi on the 22/10/06. Gotta tell myself to be better and overcome this pain. InsyaAllah I will recover...(7th October 2006 @ 12noon.)

P.I.D.

Yes, thats what I got. Never thought I would get it even though there were signs way many years ago. I thought they were simple back apins due to my weight.

But after I felt that numbness, pain over my let gluteal region and later my left toes were losing its functions, then I knew it has to be PID. I was with my beloved wife wanting to break our fast at Jusco Seremban 2. Coult'nt even accompany her shopping. That night I was in pain. Had myself aditted the next day and MRI showed the prolapsed dics. Hehehe.

After 3 days of traction, the pain has reduced tremendously and this morning (2/10/06) I went down to dliver my monthly speech. I purposely didn't sit while making the speech because that would proved to my staff that I am not strong. Now they can see for themselves how determined I am. Hopefully I will be able to win their heatrs for the sake of the patients.

Yesterday SKO, MKj, AHJ, Dayat & Nayya came after paying their homage to Awrah Rashid. Wow, I was happy seeing Nayya becoming a wonderful little girl. Miss holding her and playing with er. hehehe . InsyaAllah I will recover soon. Gotta stop now before the pain starts.